Friday, January 15, 2010

Sexism in Fandom

I don't want to go on and on about a cyber bully and thus give him more attention, but I came upon a thought that relates more to fandom in general. This is the second time a man has attacked me about my love for James Callis, like it's somehow ridiculous to be a fan and have a blog like this. Both times, there have been accusations of being obsessive, and my looks have been used against me in both cases. These two guys seem to be unrelated, are from different countries and probably don't know each other. But I don't think it's a coincidence that they are both men.

When I look back on my time in the Ace of Base fandom, there were always guys saying things like "I like the music, but I don't care about the members, that's just stupid". I'd say most male fans fell into this category. They may have had a thing for either or both of the female singers, but that mostly seemed to be sexual. Very few, if any, of them would identify with the guys or really want to be like them. Some of the girls, likewise, mainly enjoyed the music and not the members. But there were also lots of female fans with an admiration, adoration, or personal devotion for one or more of the band members.

I'd argue BSG fandom is similarly divided. There are fans who go for a certain actor, and there are those who are more into the phenomenon of the show. The latter type of fans seem to be predominantly male, the former female. And this is where it gets sexist: that men hold their type of fandom in higher esteem - possibly simply because it is mostly inhabited by men. Lots of women have this attitude too. We still have this lingering cultural idea that something mainly done by women must be frivolous. People talk derisively of the Bamber Bunnies. (I may have been guilty of that myself in the beginning.) And I guess someone very into James Callis is equally silly.

I wonder - is fandom a female phenomenon? Is it somehow related to how men and women are different, or are at least raised or treated differently? Perhaps this question is, in itself, sexist and doesn't really deserve to be raised. I raise it only because I've seen many examples of this sexism, sometimes aimed at myself, sometimes at others. The argument is simply "You're a silly fangirl, and also you're ugly." The stereotype is that if you have a crush on an actor, you're a bit silly and childish, like a giggling teenage girl. This might also mean that men are less likely to admit it if they feel strongly about a particular actor, role model-wise.

And as we all know, unattractive girls are useless and a joke all around, so it becomes this big cluster of pathetic: a GIRL coveting for an ACTOR - and she's UGLY! Like, she's totally out of his league! She'd never get him into bed in a million years! Bwahaha what a joke!

This also shows that for many men, if they like an actor, it's all about sex. You want someone hot to fantasize about. Sure, I find James very hot indeed, and I do fantasize about him - but that's not all I do. I look up to him as a person, a role model. I enjoy his performances on various shows. The fantasy of James is a fantasy about a great artist, someone I'd like to be. Not just someone I'd like to frak. And definitely not someone I ever expect to have sex with.

I'm not literally "in love with" James. I'm in love with my girlfriend and she's in love with me. That's based on knowing each other well, connecting on some deep level, becoming one. I couldn't have that with James because I've never even met him. If I did, and we connected on some level, that would be great but it still wouldn't be love. It could be, at the very most, a friendship. Whether James finds me attractive doesn't really matter. If he does, I'd be flattered, but if not, that's fine too. What I don't want from him - or anyone - is to be treated as, pardon my French, a nice piece of ass. Most smart women don't want that. We want respect.

This fantasy of James is something that, through my depression, has kept me going. It gives me something to look forward to (James' new projects/cons), something to aspire to (being more like him), something to do (the blog). I've made many friends through the fandom. Not to mention all the great conversations I've had with people about James and BSG, which have all expanded my thinking and view of the world. Is there something frivolous or silly about all of this? To me, there is not. Granted, I do joke about my James adoration, but it's just self-deprecating humor. In all seriousness, I hold fandom in very high esteem. It's an important thing in many people's lives.

Introspection: Why was I so quick to defend myself and say that I do not believe James loves me? Does it mean I, on some level, think others (maybe even James himself) would find me silly if I had a fantasy of mutual love? Did I feel "owned" on some level? Is it an admission of weakness, in our culture, that you dare love a celebrity? Because if I think in those terms, I need to change my thinking. There's nothing silly about this.

While on the topic, I feel like commenting on one more thing Mr Tyler said, and hopefully then put this thing behind us.

Now, I can’t speak for James Callis. Not in the slightest. But I’m guessing, like me, the only faces in the crowd he’ll remember for those few extra minutes more than everyone else are the ones he might want to have sex with (not you), the ones who give him free stuff (probably you) and the ones he’ll learn to avoid as their absolutely off their head mental. Now that last one, without a doubt thats you.

Do I believe this is true of James? No, I don't. This is an extremely cynical and sexist thing to say, and I just don't associate those things with James (though he probably has cynicism and sexism somewhere in his personality, as do we all). I want to point out that James remembers Janine and some others from the Unofficial Website. I don't know if they ever gave him free stuff, but he's been consistently appreciative of them for over ten years now. He also remembered Nicole based on meeting her once at a con 1,5 years prior, and I don't think Nicole brought him anything. I won't comment on the "want to have sex with" thing, because I don't know James' taste in women. I'll just suggest that perhaps to some men, it's not the first thing they care about?

So - even if you've had autograph sessions for whatever reason, James isn't necessarily like you. I'd be very careful with making those assumptions.

In the end, I don't know how James approaches us fans. He seems appreciative in all encounters I've heard of, and in my autograph as well. It could all be an act, but that doesn't really matter as long as he isn't transparently fake. If he respects and appreciates me, great (and admittedly awesome and validating). If not, it's his loss. He'd lose me as a fan, and I'd be sad, but that wouldn't make my dream a joke. And when I say "respect and appreciate", I do not mean "find me attractive". These are two completely separate things. I'm sure James knows that.

I say this to everyone whose fandom has been made fun of: There's nothing frivolous, childish, shameful or silly about having role models. I think everyone does, more or less. And on a very basic level, that's all that fandom is.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Re: "James Callis Doesn't Love You"

This is a response to the post James Callis Doesn't Love You, written by James Tyler of comawhite.co.uk. If you visit the link and see comments by "Deniselle", those are edited by James T. and not the way I had written them. The comments by Anna/Elina, who James T. imagines is the same person as me, have also been altered. He also removed all links I posted to this response, so that people couldn't see what I had written. Fair and square online conversation, in other words! I've never seen anything like this before. Attacking someone in a post, OK, but altering their comments to suit your own image of them? More than a bit disturbing. Talk about creating an echo chamber!

ETA: I will add this one note, since he has now edited his post to claim that he doesn't give a damn about me and he was just "setting a bait" and now I'm a fool for responding. Okay. That makes you look worse, though, not better. Because saying incredibly rude things about someone because you're mad at them shows a lack of maturity, but saying those things just to get a reaction shows an even greater lack of maturity. And yes, it does imply that you just sat there waiting for a reaction from me, so you could say when I react that you couldn't care less. You can't really argue that you set a bait and argue that you don't care about me or my reaction. You're kind of admitting that you're a mean SOB who deliberately wants to hurt people's feelings for your own amusement. This does not make you the bigger person.

This is one of those cases where I can tell the person went out of their way to offend me, without any knowledge of me personally. Basically I had a fight with their girlfriend, and he got upset, so he decided to make a post about me. So he just sat there thinking of possible offenses. "Let's see. There's nothing directly ridiculous about having a fan blog, and that's really the only thing I know about her. But I guess I can spin that into a ridiculous thing if I claim she thinks James Callis loves her too. How pathetic is that? Bwa ha! And let's look at her picture... wow, she's fat, isn't she! That's great material right there, fat girls go cry and eat a donut as soon as you tell them they're fat. Man, I'm good! I can't wait til she sees this! Now to post as many links on twitter as possible and just wait for her response."

So here's my response: Blah. You call that an offensive post? I've been called fat so many times I lost count, and really, I am fat, and that's not a bad thing to be. So that one's rather... duh. I'm also short, and in case you missed it, I do wear glasses. Like you correctly observed, I'm also female, so fan+girl=fangirl. And, since the most important quality of a woman is attractiveness, you did right to point out my objective lack thereof. I am greatly humbled and will now promptly remove this blog.

So, the unrelated accusation here is that James doesn't love me and I'm therefore stupid and pathetic to love him.

I like to be tongue-in-cheek in this blog, but I guess I have to start posting huge THIS IS SARCASM notes all over it, so people realize I don't genuinely think James loves me and the blog. On second thought: no, I won't. My blog, my rules. If you don't understand sarcasm, maybe you shouldn't read here.

Just this once, however, I will respond to this "critique" and state my case in all seriousness. I'm a fangirl, hear me roar. Ahem.

I've never met James and cannot speak for him (and no other blogger can either). The only thing I can say is: I love James Callis. Do I expect him to love me back? Absolutely not. It's not how fandom works. You love someone from a distance, and you're not expecting for it to be reciprocated. I don't know any - sane and adult - fan who truly honestly believes they will marry their idols. Especially if the idol in question is already married with children. And the fan in question is in a happy long-term relationship with a woman. I don't need James to fulfil my romantic and sexual needs. Not that there's anything wrong with a single fan dreaming of a relationship with a star, as long as they don't expect for it to actually happen.

Do I have fantasies of him being friends with me and kinda loving me back? Yes, like any fan, I have those fantasies. Do I hope he reads the blog, enjoys it, and comes back for more? Absolutely. Do I expect for these things to be a reality? No. For the sake of the fantasy, I do retain the hope that James reads and might express appreciation for the blog, should I meet him one day. The autograph gave me some of that validation. But I never took his "lots and lots of love always" thing to mean that he literally loves me. He always says "lots of love" to fans - in the panels, in the forums, in the autographs. It's his phrase. It probably doesn't mean very much, even if it is sweet. The reason I reacted so strongly this time is that he added to it. That, to me, implies that he meant some of it this time. Not that he loves me like he loves his wife, children, or friends. Not even like I love him. Just that he genuinely appreciated my fandom and/or the stuff I sent him. That's all I wanted.

Let's say James, despite his general sunny disposition and kind autograph, really doesn't give a flying frak about me. Which, really, is very possible. Let's say he even thinks I'm a little fanatic and tedious, if he's read the blog. Does this make me ridiculous and pathetic to dream about him? No. It's just how fandom works. He doesn't need to feel anything at all for me. I have every right to love him, adore him, idolize him, whatever I want. Because this is my fantasy and no one else's. I've chosen to make some of my fandom public in this blog, partially because other fans share similar feelings for him. As far as I can see, having a blog like this is perfectly fine, as long as it remains respectful to James and doesn't spread lies or false rumors.

I was going to write a longer discussion of fan identification and feeling like you know the person, but that will have to wait to another time. It's an interesting topic, really. Part of why I started this blog is to celebrate fandom in general (the other part is, of course, celebrating James Callis). If the blog pisses people off, then maybe I have succeeded in expressing something real and resonant.

I'm not well enough versed in psychology to know why fandom happens to some people and not to others, and what the magic is in loving someone you've never met and really don't know much about. I just know this: it is magical, and it's beautiful, and it's yours. No one can take it away from you. Daring to love someone is always worth it.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

James Callis at FedCon 2009: The Panel, Part 1



Screenshots by me, from the DVD.

First of all, huge thanks to Artemis_Neith for a) suggesting that she get me the FedCon DVD, b) getting me the FedCon DVD as soon as it came out. Also huge thanks to those responsible for putting together this release. I have to advertise it a little before I go any further.

If you want to see this on a DVD, do order it. It's great. It has the panels of James, Richard Hatch, Edward James Olmos, Michael Hogan, and Mark Sheppard. James had to leave early because of Rubins, so he was not able to give more than one panel. But it's a great panel, a full hour, and lots of good questions/answers.

I watched this together with Elina, which was quite amusing. She made some remarks, which I think I'll actually sprinkle around this transcript to add another voice into it. I wasn't able to answer some of her difficult questions - "What does FedCon stand for?" was one. But she made my day noticing that, even though James is quite thin here, there's still a small round belly on him. (I won't go on about that, but it's adorable, it is.) She made my day even more by suggesting that he may have worn the tight teen-style shirt just so I could see the belly. Hee! Granted, it's far more likely that, like Elina also suggested, "he's having some sort of age crisis." But a girl can dream, right?



We all know James has a pretty severe dash problem with his writing. But there's also a verbal addiction he has: levels. I took the liberty of counting how many times he talks about various "levels" throughout this panel and the results are below. It's not pretty, my friends.

On some level: 17 (!!!)

On a basic level: 2
On a very basic level: 1
On another level: 1

As usual, lots of cute gestures and moving around amusingly. I wasn't sure what to make of this:


Itchy or flirty?

OK, let's get to the panel. He comes in, and I give the presenter props for referring to James as "some of the nicest people" and minus for saying Baltar is one of the nastiest characters.

Well, here I am. I was just saying yesterday when I came out on stage.. I didn't even see the balcony. I was just like this (peers with his hand) Christ, there's so many people. Then I looked up and thought oh my god, there's more people. (peers) There's certainly a lot of you here. Well, this is my first time in Bonn. I've been to Germany several times before, but not for a convention. I'm obviously not so jetlagged, I think it's an hour difference from London. And I actually start work on a film [Re-Uniting the Rubins] tomorrow morning at seven o'clock in London, so I'm afraid that after this.. session I've gotta dash. Get to work. Let's get my jacket off, excuse me. [He takes his jacket off, the audience woos] Who knew?
Hee, he said "dash"! :D Our dashing man with the dashes. Actually, I just realized I never use enough dashes in my transcripts. Surely in his head "let's get my jacket off, excuse me" is "let's get - my jacket off - excuse - me". But in the name of legibility, let's just write like ordinary people. We can't all have the James brain.

So, I think it's best if you guys wanna ask me some questions. And I'll try my best to answer them. Or just lie very effectively. Okay? I believe you guys know the score and you came down and you're hit by a spotlight.. hopefully it's only a spotlight.
I don't wanna bash anyone from BSG, but... OK, I'll admit it: I do want to bash Richard Hatch a little bit, because he's also on this DVD and he started his panel with a five-minute monologue. You know, people have come to ask you questions, so let them ask questions. I think James has the right idea here: just open the floor to the fans after establishing a conversational tone.

The first question begins with a wish that he doesn't take up half the panel to answer, because Edward James Olmos took half the panel answering this guy's question. (Oh dear, Eddie. I know he took half another panel answering some fan's question and others yelled at her for it. It can't be the same person because this fan is male. I don't want to bash Eddie, actually, because he seemed really cool and thoughtful in his panel. But still.)

Fair enough, but I think the shorter the question is, the better. And starting by "please don't be too wordy" may not be the best way. It's not directly offensive or anything though, and James doesn't seem bugged.

So the question: Does he have any idea what happened to the cult after the finale?

James: It's a very good question..

Fan: And my second question...

James: Oh that was only the first part? My god!

Fan: The other question is very short.

James: Oh, OK.
Hee! :D "My god!" could be a bit offensive if said in the wrong tone, but James just sounds amused and like he's gently ribbing the guy. (L)!




The second question is... something about Bridget Jones and all the flight attendants recognizing him from it.
OK, very quickly then. I have no idea what happened to the cult afterwards. There's some email that goes around: people are in your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. It would seem that the cult was in Gaius' life for a season and a reason, but not a lifetime. And I dunno where they went, they obviously felt the love between themselves. Maybe NBC Universal will make a spinoff series "Baltar's Lovecult". [laughter]

Fan: I'd love to see you there.

James: Me too, me too.

Fan [something about Paulla]

James: Indeed. And Jeanne. And all my holy ladies. So that was that. There was nothing in the script about their demise, they left, that was gone...

Why do all flight attendants recognize me from Bridget Jones' Diary? I'm sure there'll be some who are, obviously, like "Hey, I have no idea who that guy is, I dunno what they're talking about." My experience is that.. it would seme that ... being a flight attendant, perhaps you have to learn first aid and you must have watched BJD. That's the comparison.. That's certainly my feeling. How was it filming that film? First one was a lot of fun, a lot of people, including me, had a very difficult time keeping a straight face. Because I personally found Renee Zellweger terribly funny. And... yeah, cracked me up. I worked with Sally Phillips and Shirley Henderson. We were like a little threesome and we had a lot of fun.

We've heard him quote Shakespeare and many other well-known classics, but I'm glad to see he's not a big snob, since he can even quote a chain email. And it seems like he hasn't really thought of the cult at all after the finale. I'd love to see Baltar's Lovecult though, of course. I like that there was some closure to Gaius-the-prophet, but I didn't really care about any of the cult members, because they weren't really developed as characters. As always, I wish the cult had been expanded on more. And that the membership had been open for fans. Well, James did invite me to join his cult, so I'm happy. I'd rather belong to his cult than Gaius'.

I wonder what Renee Zellweger thought of James. I've never seen her refer to him, maybe I should use my superior googling skills to find something. He's always spoken highly of her, so she must have made quite an impression.

Also note that he can't even joke about all the flight attendants knowing him without adding that some probably, in fact, do not know him. Our humble guy.



Next question. The other characters have inspired various military people, but does Baltar inspire anyone? What kind of people might he inspire? James looks very amused at the idea. Or, what does he want the viewers to take with them?

It's another good question. The kind of people Baltar is inspiring. Maybe we don't really want to know who they are [laughter] or what he's exactly inspiring them to do. I don't know, uh.. start up their own religions or..? There's certainly several people on this planet who've done that already.

What does he give to an audience? On a basic level, I don't know. But I know what, as it were, I was trying to do. And on some level I was like, this guy is a real.. he's so morally bankrupt, he's made so many mistakes, he's actually in so much spiritual...distress. Sad, and lonely and guilty and ashamed. And... on a basic level when this goes out in America, what is he? He's a [American accent] scum-sucking sleazeball, essentially. The idea I had was.. if this.. scum-sucking sleazeball can occasionally do the right thing, then so can you. Everybody. Nobody ? too bad. That's my answer.
[Applause]
What is a scum-sucking sleazeball? Do I even want to know? I actually happened upon a conversation about the phrase sleazebag and apparently it has to do with feminine hygiene. I never knew that. The conversation was about whether that was a sexist thing to say, and there were people for and against the idea, as always. It was very confusing to a Finn. I've used to using "sleazebag" as just a synonym for "asshole" or something. Maybe asshole is actually safer, since we all have one. No sexism there.

It's funny because in some way, I do identify with Baltar, although I don't think we have a lot in common. Well, we're both short, and we wear glasses, but I'd almost say it ends there. He doesn't inspire me.

Although I may have said it before, James frequently does inspires me to be a better person. I keep asking myself "What would James Callis do?" (And, since I don't know him all that well, I can always fall back on "He'd eat some junk food" and indulge.)

Some of the other cast members had been to a previous FedCon and asked who on the show they'd like to play. They'd all said Baltar. Who else would James like to play?

Well, I joked in a former podcast that I'd like to play Six... So that I could then play WITH myself, that'd be fantastic. [laughter] The only thing better than being me would be acting... That's a joke. Um.. yeah, I really.. the part was amazing. It really was the most incredible part. Cos he was, on some level, so many different things to so many people, and also to himself. And this allowed me and the writers and the directors.. I think uh.. an extraordinary liberty. He was never just one kind of guy or one kind of Gaius. There's lots of different.. personalities vying for superiority within his own mind. Like on a very basic level he could be funny, and he could be sad, or he could be perverse or he could be honest. He could be totally like.. he goes over his head or doesn't care. And then he can be very compassionate. He could run thru the litmus of emotions and that was a real gift to be able to do.
It's very true about Gaius, and it's a beautiful thing to say and in case you missed it, he did not answer the question at all. I work at a phone survey job and this reminded me of that. You'll ask someone a question and they answer with something only slightly related that gives you nothing to work with. Like "how often do you visit this particular supermarket?" and the answer is, "You know, I just went there today, and then I realized on the way home I forgot to buy soap, so I had to go right back! Isn't that funny." It isn't really, and it has nothing to do with what I asked, but thanks for telling me.

Now I digressed worse than James, but my point is that he's never answered this question seriously. That might mean he can't imagine playing anyone else on the show, because he identifies so much with Baltar. Or that he doesn't think as much of the other characters on the show (at least the male characters whom he could conceivably play). Also, he still always seems amused at the guy-Gaius pun.

Also observe his facial expressions when he describes Gaius' many emotions:

Sad.



Perverse.

Honest.

Doesn't care.

Compassionate.

It's like he goes through those emotions while answering the question. Beautiful.

The next fan is kind of apologetic about their question, but it's amusing, so here's a partial transcript of that.

Fan: I have a question but I have to be very diplomatic, because if I word it wrong, the crowd here might just lynch me. Um, Tricia Helfer is a beautiful, tall woman.

James: ...Yes.

Fan: And you're not.

James: [amused] No. [laughter] And I see you're all wearing glasses. Congratulations.

[So the question is if they meant to cast such height-wise unmatched actors or just went with what they had.]

James: Do you know, it's a good question.

Fan: [anxiously] Please don't hate me!

James: [shakes his head as if to reassure her: no, I don't hate you]
We were cast together, in fact. They weren't looking for A Baltar or A Six, they were looking for Baltar AND Six. I think that we uh.. and they saw something that I suppose we didn't see at the time. We complement each other, there's a natural chemistry. Also on this level, she's supposed to be a killer robot. So the joke in the relationship was that this very feminine creature had some very masculine attributes. And myself, as supposedly the male in the scenario had some very feminine attributes. There was always twisting on this dime?.

Normally it's the big burly guy who saves the damsel in distress. This was always the other way around. It was the strong cylon saving a waiflike Gaius. And obviously, Tricia's not that tall, we had to stand her on a table so she'd look so much taller than me. [makes a hilarious self-effacing face] Thanks very much.
[applause]
He doesn't look at all offended by the question. I'm not offended by it, as a fan, although I must say it sounds more offensive with the apologizing, as if his shortness is a terrible flaw that must be approached carefully. Most of the fans find it endearing. It's amusing, because the fan is so anxious about her question and seems to worry that James will be mad or something. James looks very kind listening to her. (L)!

I kinda admire that James was willing to play such an unmasculine role. I won't pretend to understand the male ego and how it all works, but it seems like playing a role where you have to be weak in front of women is a problem to some guys. James is probably pretty comfortable with his feminine side if he can play such a part. I also love that he calls Gaius "waiflike". I had to check if I had the right idea of waif - I was thinking "child" or possibly "fairy". It seems to be an orphaned or abandoned child. Awww, pirpana! (<-old Finnish word for small child)



It's invisible to the camera, but I know this because the con reports had it: someone from the other side of the room has a question, and they have to rush the microphone there. James: "Run. Forrest." Hee! I hated Forrest Gump, which I always feel the need to mention. But it's a really cute reference. A pretty old reference, really - he has this fast wit that works in situations like that.

He gave Lucy "the full monty" - hee! - and does he do this often or..?

Oh dear. At home, more times than you'd care to know.

On set, we were actually we were joking, because we'd been talking about watching King Kong and how incredible the actors' performances are, given that obviously they weren't acting with a real King Kong. And Lucy was joking about essentially it's most o fthe time when you're doing a green screen or graphics, there is like a microphone stand with a tennis ball on the top of it with a cross of it for your eyeline. I thought that they'd do that, that's what we're gonna do.

But when I came out naked in that scene, Lucy almost fell over. I said you can either look at me, or you can look at a microphone with a tennis ball on the end. Which would be better? One of the curious moments that Lucy was speechless. The joke about that is that.. yeah, it's a very liberating thing getting naked in front of a lot of people who aren't. And all I remember is the sound guy who was so terrified that he might see me and then ruin the rest of his life [laughter], he actually walked head first to a wall cos he was holding the boom, kind of [stands up and shows] whack! Into a wall. That was kind of amusing."

I remember people being really confused about this microphone/tennis ball reference. It makes sense in context - James is probably quoting Lucy with "I thought that's what we're gonna do". Lucy came into the room expecting a microphone with a tennis ball on it, and instead she saw a completely naked and well-endowed James Callis, and that was enough to throw even Lucy Lawless off balance. Hee!

Yes, I did get smutty thoughts from "at home...", but let's not go there. I wonder if Elina and I discussed that - I can't remember anymore. We talk smutty so much that it all blends in together.


Pretending to be the boom guy. I know the second picture has motion-blur but I had to add it because it's so full of James-like boyish energy. "Whee!!"

Did he ever want to play Baltar differently than what was scripted? James looks like he has to think hard about this question. [Um, Baltar signing the death warrant?? I can't believe he doesn't even mention it here.]

Umm.. no, not particularly. But I always um.. I think that the whole show, Battlestar, really did something to the genre of science fiction. And one of the.. if it's fair to say, we tried to make everyone as three-dimensional as possible. So occasionally I would feel that I was.. some of the scenarios or some of the things I was placed in.. were tending to lose me a dimension. And I wasn't prepared ... I wasn't prepared to live it out that way.

We all... Essentially I don't believe any one of us was acting when we were on the show. We were all living through those characters. Anything that didn't quite come up to your expectation had to change slightly so it could be accommodated. I never did anything differently from the way it was scripted necessarily... but I suppose.. like if there was one scene where it's just like he's supposed to be a bit mean and he doesn't care, I'd know myself that there'd be something, even if it was a look in the eye, where I'd have to show that he doesn't know. Bring in some other human equation. If that answers your question.
But why doesn't he bring up the times he fought against the writers? The gun to his head while signing the death warrant? I'm sure there were other examples but I can't think of them offhand. Maybe he couldn't think of any either, because he seems a little apologetic about this answer.

How much did they improvise while shooting BSG?

You can only improvise so much. It's not like you'd improvise scenes. Everything you're improvising around is based on the lines of the scene in the script. And everybody on our show imporoivsed. And that's not just the actors. That's the writers, directors, producers.. there was a real synergy whereby ppl trusted each other enough to go with it, to go with something in the moment. And there was really never a time where it was like "No you can't do that! We must not veer off this path!" Because we did not necessarily know what that path was until we created it.

So it's not like uh.. I don't know if you have programmes here like Give Us a Clue, where actors are just given a line and they have to improvise a whole play, it was never like this. It was more like ad libbing than improvising. Which is like adding some things or taking some things away that you think could suit the personality you portray. Ok?
Ah, I didn't realize there was a difference between "ad libbing" and "improvising". I thought they were synonymous. Professor James teaching me new stuff again.

In terms of plot cohesiveness and the finale, I do think it's a shame that they didn't know where they were going. But it can also be a good thing, because the actors were able to shape it a bit. Maye it's more exciting to work on a story that's about to unfold before your eyes than something set in stone before production begins, i.e. Babylon 5 and the like. I don't know. I'm certainly glad they got to ad lib and change things based on what they felt was right for the character.

I loved this next question, but I might want to explain the context for those who haven't watched as much BSG. In the season 3 episode Taking a Break From All Your Worries, James has a scene with Alessandro Juliani (Felix Gaeta). Baltar whispers something in Gaeta's ear, which makes Gaeta stab him with a pen. Later, in the web series Face of the Enemy, they show the scene again and this time we hear what Baltar whispered. The question is: did they redub the scene, or was it always planned that way?

The whispering in the ear really as Alessandro's ... it came from Alessandro. This is actually almost to answer the last gentleman's question. This was something that was improvised, it wasn't in the script.

But Alessandro said, "If I'm gonna stab this guy thru the neck with a pen. It's like, I've been so.. I've gone there at the right time, I'm talking the shit with him about the plans and how they might save his life and then suddenly I just.. it's not enough. I want something, I want him to drive me crazy, I want him to say something, DO something to me, that would make me get a pen and stab him thru the neck." So I was like, isn't that great? So that's where that came from. And at the time, we had no idea what it was, or the provocative nature of what it was that I was saying. But whatever it was, it was supposed to.. like a red rag to a bull, that would make him go crazy. So yeah, that was kind of an afterthought that I think was very cleverly worked in to the episodes.
I think so too. And I think it was a good idea to have an intriguing moment like that between the two men, who had surely experienced things together on New Caprica. (That sounds a bit dirty, but I don't necessarily mean sexual things.) Gaeta had seen who Baltar truly is, but Baltar had also seen who Gaeta truly is, even if it might be easy to forget that. Gaeta was disillusioned by Baltar, but maybe it also works the other way around. At any rate, there are always secrets you can tap into when you know someone that well. It's kind of a moment where Baltar shows his intellect, he knows how to play people in some way, even if he can be so socially bumbling too.

It speaks volumes about Alessandro that he wanted that in. He seems to have thought of his character as much as James thought of Baltar, and wanted to really have Gaeta react to something rather than just stab him for no reason.

Did he ever think he'd be the fifth cylon?

I.. no, I knew it wasn't me. Couldn't be me. Umm... that... cos I was too human on some level, I think that would have been.. not a good turning point. But I had no idea who it was, at all. But when I found out I was like.. you are kidding! You are kidding me. What? Where does that come from? How does that work? OK, fine, as long as it's not me, I don't care. It's funny because all those other final cylons Michael Hogan as Colonel Tigh, and Aaron as the Chief.. especially these two are so.. these are the people who led the resistance back on New Caprica, you should have seen their faces when it was like: Hey guys, you're on the wrong team! [points] [laughter] Yeah, not Gaius, you! Oh dear.. so that was good.


Hee! I can imagine him ribbing Aaron about this. Tigh and the Chief were good choices for cylons, because they were so central and so anti-cylon at some point. But my regret is that they didn't explore the "old Earth" cylon community storyline much further than that one episode.

Well, does he think it's a good choice, who the fifth cylon is?

Uh... Do you know, it is a good choice. And not a lot we can do to change it right now. [laughter]
Tell us a bit about the film you're going to shoot (Re-Uniting the Rubins, although the name is never mentioned here).

It's a comedy, a kind of romantic comedy although nobody falls in love. It's about a family that..uh, had a tragedy happen to them back in the day and then.. because of this thing, in years apart, can't really look each other in the eye or the face. And due to circumstances, they all come back together again. It's gonna be exciting and fun and also, you know, not in space. Actually set in London, so that's kind of cool.
That sounds really interesting. And I'm confused that some fans reported that he could not tell them more than that it's a family comedy. I mean, he says quite a bit about the basic theme of the movie here. He just doesn't go into specifics like what happened to the family. He sounds excited about it, and I'm really hopeful and optimistic about this project, I really am.

Would he have liked to be the final cylon?

Not really, to be honest, no. That would have been very confusing for me.. already I was pretty confused if you've seen the show.
I didn't need anything else to make me more confused. That's... [??]
All of the actors said the same thing: nobody wanted to be the final cylon. It would have ruined Adama and Roslin and Baltar and so forth. I'm not really sure. I think it would have added depth to a character in a way, if they had spent the rest of the season trying to find their cylon selves. With Baltar, however, it might have been dull, given that he's spent most of the show interacting with cylons and wondering if he is one. He's already gone thru a part of that crisis. So maybe that wouldn't have been a way to find something new about Baltar.

Silence for a moment. James jokes: "Talk amonst yourselves, I don't mind. Oh hello."

The next fan has a very strong accent and at first I don't understand her (and James looks like he's focusing really hard too, listening to her). But I think the question is basically: does Gaius love Caprica-Six?

It's a really good question and I think uh.. there's a simple answer. I'm sorry to blow it for those who haven't seen it. Yes, this man is in love. And he's been in love with the same person for years and years. One person on his mind, one .. everybody reminds him of this one person. He's so vain nad he's so narcissistic, he can't see it. He's in denial. It takes so much to get his head bumped into this reality of: yeah, there's one person, one person who is his angel, his guardian. I think yes, I don't necessarily understand it myself, but I think that is the case. Does that answer your question?
Awwww! (L) I love that they got back to Gaius and Caprica in the end. I don't usually get that excited about couples on TV, but I just had to ship Gaius/CapricaSix, because honestly, they're so fucked up and so funny, so wrong on so many levels, yet somehow so... right? It's hard to say what I love about them. Probably it falls in the category of "not cliché". I thought there was something a bit expected about Kara/Lee and Adama/Roslin, and Gaius/Six was just a different kind of couple. (As was Helo/Athena, actually.)

I think both Gaius and Six were kind of deluded for a while, wrapped up in their own concerns and even other relationships (Six with Tigh and Gaius with.. well, everyone). But it's kind of beautiful and poetic they found back to each other. I just wish it had happened a little sooner in season 4.

A follow-up question to the evil theme earlier: he said Gaius is morally bankrupt, is there a difference between that and evil?

Of course, there's a huge difference. No, I think... I find it very .. I think that evil on some level.. I don't really understand what that is necessarily, but I think one of the things about it is: it comes with malice, it comes with premeditation. That's not Gaius Baltar at all. He is somebody who winds up in something thru circumstance. lots to do with his own ego, but that doesn't make somebody evil. Evil is when you have a mind to it.

There's a great line in the Shakespeare play, I think it's Much Ado About Nothing. And there is this character called Don John, the Bastard Brother. Very subtle, these plays in Shakespeare's time. And there's this gathering, of all these people being happy and laughing, whatever. He turns, his line is: [sinister voice] "I would the cook were of my mind." In the sense of you know, when they go to dinner, if I was the cook, I'd poison them all. That's evil, that's mean. But I don't think being morally bankrupt is necessarily as evil.

Yay for random Shakespeare references! Professor James! :D I have read some Shakespeare, because I had to, and I didn't really get much of it and still don't. I couldn't quote it offhand besides something really famous like "To be or not to be". Hmm. "I know I'm Thane of Glamis, but what of Cawdor?" or was it Clamis? Another one that jumps out of my mind: "He's killed me, mother!" because duh, if you were dead, how are you able to say that? Those are both from Macbeth, I think. James' ability to just quote Shakespeare like that is rather admirable and creepy at the same time. But maybe he's actually played some of those roles.

On topic: I think he should have explained what he meant by "morally bankrupt". (Or maybe, because he is James, he thinks quoting Shakespeare will explain everything.) I think from his earlier quote that he meant Gaius has already done so many bad things that he's sort of worn out by guilt and can't take any more. But the fan probably took it to mean that he doesn't have any morals, he's all out of it. This is the problem with a panel like this, when you touch upon deep concepts and don't really have a chance to keep up with who says and means what. In that sense, a moderated panel might be better because the fans are probably too nervous to ask him to elaborate.

The next question is about the finale and the fan is worried about spoiling. James goes: "Everybody who hasn't seen it, go like..." and puts his fingers in his ears, with this mischievious grin. (L)!



Anyhow, Lee tells Gaius he's done nothing but selfish things.

Fan: "I tend to agree..."

James: "Right. I'm out of here."

Then Gaius has a change of heart by stepping onto the side of the heroes and fighting with Galactica. "What's your approach on that change of heart?"

As James starts to answer, his microphone goes out completely. There's some laughter. He tries to just start talking. "You wanna use a microphone?" the fan says. I think James says, "You can't hear me?", because she says into her microphone: "I can but the rest can't." I envy this fan because she talks really calmly and naturally to James. I wish I could, if I ever meet him.

James walks closer to the edge of the stage and shouts: HI! so that everyone hears. And then starts to fiddle with his microphone bottom. Hee! He looks so serious and puzzled, as if he can fix it by just pressing some button. Actually, I think I can read his lips: "If I press this button.. hello?" But it doesn't help. Someone brings him another, and then that microphone doesn't work either and the sound guy at the top of the room is gestured. It's a cute little interlude. Wasn't there something like this in the Dragon*Con panels in 2008? Why does it always happen to James?

"Hmm. What do do..."

Trying to fix the microphone...

Looks up at the sound guy.

[loud voice] Hallo? [sound comes back] Hello hello hello... ah, here we are. [laughter, applause] Right. [lowers voice, amused at himself] OK, now I don't have to scream.

I don't think Gaius Baltar needs Lee Adama to tell him the kind of man he is. And when we were filming that scene, the director Michael Rymer was like, 'You go back to the point where... he'd have a knife up against his throat in a stall, he'd more concerned that the goon was gonna smash in Paulla's brains. And given the choice of pleading for his life, he pleaded for a child's...'

This part was a bit confusing at first. He's referring to He That Believeth in Me, i.e. season 4 episode 1, where Paulla and himself are attacked by two guys who hate Gaius for, well, everything he's done as a president. I'm not sure if I read the scene in the same way - was he morried for Paulla than for himself?

For me, the number one example of selflessness is Gina and his compassion for her. But then that might be a problematic one, since he did have trouble telling her from Caprica/HeadSix, and he did expect to get sex from her soon after. And then he gave her the nuclear warhead. Either way, that was the first time I saw him worry about someone else's ass than his own (in a non-sexual way). But I guess we're thinking of more recent season four things.
Yeah, he has done some things that are not.. what's the word? Totally selfish. I think it's a real.. it's about your perspective. It's about how close you are to that thing. And when Lee says all of those things to Baltar, there is a.. Yeah, the broad brush strokes are absolutely true. There's little bits in between that I think Lee has missed. That Lee has never seen, so why would he ever.. and the wonderful line that Baltar says is actually, "Yeah, I wouldn't trust me either." The interesting thing about that is that the whole scene was filmed with number 6 in the scene. She was right over Lee Adama saying, "Yeah, he's gonna die so I wouldn't worry about what he's gonna say." So if it looks like I'm going like this [looks around], it's because we did shoot it in a slightly different way.

And the ending of his man? He has nothing else, he knew the cult was a sham from the moment that he stepped into it. He just needed the right kind of pressure to leave it, and on some level, um... on some level, ever since he tried to kill himself, this is not a man who's necessarily afraid of death. Just afraid of doing the wrong thing.

They cut so much of HeadSix from season 4.5, and I still don't get why. It changes the tone of the entire scene when you see the deleteds and there's an extended bit with HeadSix.

Elina: "It's true, the other characters haven't seen him do those things. You forget that as a viewer."
It is like that and it's odd. Us viewers are sort of omniscient and we know Baltar has done these things, but did anyone even see him pray for the sick boy? Lee certainly wouldn't see anything other than "oo, Gaius Baltar the egomaniac is leading his own cult! How surprising." I could see why he thinks Baltar is completely selfish and I'm glad James pointed this out, because that scene did bother me for that very reason.

American TV seems to always have villains who are either German or British (James nods seriously: oh yes). Is Gaius bad or just misled?



There's lots of ways of playing any character. Except that very few characters have the you know, the blood of the whole world on their shoulders. So if on any level Gaius Baltar did know what he was doing, he would be a monster. Monstrous. That wasn't sombeody I was interested in playing. But I remember being in school and being in trouble, I said I'd be in one place and really I was in another place.. then you're gonna be found out by the head teacher. I remember a few years at school, just constantly like [looks around anxiously] where did I say I was going to be? Who am I going to tell.. that kind of panic.

LOL! :D I wonder what kind of little scoundrel he was at school age. You might expect that he was a straight A student and utter nerd, but apparently not so. Maybe his personality is so vibrant that school felt boring and he had to think of stuff to get in trouble with. Actually, my thesis supervisor said that he hated school and was always getting into trouble. The headmaster developed a way of knowing in beforehand when he was going to make a wisecrack. "Robertson, my office! Now!" And he became a literature professor.
(Do they call it "head teacher" and not "headmaster" in the UK?)

And.. fear, living in fear, is very much on some level living in the future. If you live in the moment, in the now, you can't really be afraid. But if you're constantly thinking abou tthe thing that might happen to you, you're gonna be very afraid. And I think I chose to work off those dynamics which in turn makes him slightly more sympathetic. Not necessarily that he is.
Fear is living in the future? Hmm. That's a really profound thought. I think he is sympathetic, mostly. To me anyway.

Another question: did he have any trouble at home because of his womanizing role?
No, my wife thinks... you know, she keeps on saying, "Cos it's on television James, that's why they're supposed to find you attractive. It's on television, you see? TV, it's not real, James." [laughter, applause]

I always try to decipher his looks when he talks about this stuff - is he genuinely so humble about his talent and his looks or is he just feigning it? He always looks genuine, and some of the fan compliments seem to make him almost uncomfortable. But then he is an actor.

Elina: "I wonder if his wife has to take him down a notch. Like he's been reading your blog too much so he's big-headed: oh I'm so gorgeous, everybody wants me."
Me: "Bwah!"

I wish! Well, I don't wish he were big-headed, actually. Maybe it's best if he doesn't read oh what am I saying, I totally wish he reads every post. Multiple times. And prints them and puts them in a little binder and draws hearts around his favorite bits and... Eh, I mean... next question.

It's apparently someone who's already asked one before, as James notes, "Hi. You moved. Flash!" and makes a "flash" noise. The question is if they shot the entire Opera House sequence at once, since we kept seeing more flashes of it later on. James' answer: "Yes. Very simple." That is all, and I guess the person isn't interested in the details of the shooting because they don't ask anything more. It would have been nice to hear a bit more about the sequence, which was both beautiful and intriguing. Gotta keep this in the file "Future questions for James", if I ever get a chance to interview him (fat chance) or send more questions through con-goers (fairly likely).

More in part 2!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

2009 - A Year in James

Since I'm having a head cold again, I'd best start off the decade with a very redundant "last year roundup" post. It should be fluffy enough that I can write it in the middle of a major snot invasion. This will be mostly a link dump, nothing new, but it's nice to have it all in one place.

So, what happened with James in 2009?

Career:

In April, James received a Jules Verne Award in Paris, along with co-stars Mary McDonnell and Jamie Bamber. A proud moment for him and the fans, and quite a bit of media buzz around the event.

He appeared on American crime show Numb3rs as a terrifying cult leader, Mason Duryea. First time we hear him with a Southern accent! It was pretty awesome and gave him a lot of visibility. Duryea is definitely more of a villain than Gaius ever was, even if some people grumbled about him being typecast as a cult leader (note that Gaius only became that at the very end, it's not really his essence or anything).

He also appeared as Merlin on Syfy's Merlin and the Book of Beasts. First time we hear him with a Welsh accent. Um, it wasn't great. But not as bad as some say, either. Um... I have trouble saying much...I'll write more about it later.

During the spring/summer, he also shot a British film called Re-Uniting the Rubins, a Jewish family comedy that sounds pretty promising. Some info and pictures posted by the location manager in this blog. He was quite impressed with James' performance, and I'm looking forward to this. Co-stars include Rhona Mitra and Timothy Spall.

James also voiced a documentary on BBC called The Podfather, about Robert Noyce who invented the silicon chip. I was able to find it online, and it was quite interesting. James keeps his voice pretty neutral for the most part, but there were a couple of cute moments where you can hear him sound extra solemn or soft.

Not much more info on his career at the moment. He visited the US several times over the year, so maybe there was some job thing going on he has yet to tell us about? He's being very secretive about future plans, so let's hope no news is good news.

Cons:
(These are just links to my ultimate con posts, which contain links to the con reports by others)


FedCon in Bonn, Germany - still coming up: a full transcript of the panel from DVD!


Extra: panel transcript here, here and here!


2009 Interviews:
Discussing 4.5 episodes with Spacecast (audio)
Discussing the end with USA Weekend Who's News Blog (article)
More about the end with SFX (article)
And even more about the end at IGN (article)
An in-depth look at his Numb3rs character at IGN (article)
A brief chat at/about Comic-Con with Dewdcast (video)
Was HeadBaltar really an angel? James tells io9: "How should I know?" (video)

Two video interviews during the Jules Verne thing in France:

And the actual Jules Verne Q&A:

Other events:

On his 38th birthday, James announced the birth of his third child, a daughter named Anika, born in May. The message is here at the Unofficial website. Awww, Anika! I.. (L) Sorry, I'm still all gushy.

All in all, James left four messages to the fans at the Unofficial website, all viewable here. The website celebrated its 10th anniversary this year, and James has been reading and writing to the fans since the very beginning. Much gratitude to him and, of course, Janine and Rikkie who run the site!

Looks-wise: He started the year with short hair, then grew it long, and then cut it again. But before the year ended, it had already grown out a little. Our hirsute man! (Babbles about his possible, but barely visible weight changes cut for length.)

Some of the cutest pictures taken in 2009:

In fandom:

Kixxa started her blog All Things James Callis, with lots of lovely photos of James' projects over the years. Check it out if you haven't already!

The end of BSG brought all kinds of feelings to the surface, even if James guaranteed that we can't be disappointed. James, you hopeless optimist! I was quite fulfilled and happy with the ending myself, with some rather minor complaints. Here's my rundown of the Baltar-related bits of the finale. I never wrote a long post about all of mine nitpicks, because there were so many others saying the same things, and because really, I wanted to feel happy and grateful with so much good going on.

For those unhappy with the finale, Ron D. Moore answered fan concerns at Syfy, here.

After the end of BSG, the Syfy Forums kind of died. I haven't really been around and it seems like no one else has been either... Um, if you're interested in talking about James, there's a lot of fun stuff going on on Twitter. And LiveJournal. Add me, I'm BaltarStar/Deniselleb. And not to forget the first James Callis forum where James himself sometimes posts, here!

My fan year:

So, let's sum it up.

-James wrote me the Best. Autograph. Ever. (L) (L) (L)!!! Let the record show that James Callis loves me a lot, always. He only loves the rest of you sometimes.

-I wrote him something silly and something personal and dared send it. So now he knows I exist. Eeeee!
-He answered my question about HeadBaltar. And seemed all gleeful about the question. (L)!

Also: he loves donuts, to my apparently unending glee and satisfaction. Need I link to that?

It's been a surprisingly awesome year. Only one disappointment that I retconned anyway, and all kinds of happy discoveries - he loves names? He loves junk food? He loves books? He loves Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind? I'm not saying James and I are exactly alike or anything, but I mean, come on. He's done so much more this year than I expected, what with the con appearances and Jules Verne and everything. I feel like I can hardly keep up with the reports and cute pictures. Good times! :)

My heart pounded in March when kixxa told me James is on Twitter, and then it turned out he wasn't. I felt a bit sad that he had added so many followers without adding any of the known fans. Yet I was also sad to hear it wasn't him, because I think I would have enjoyed his tweets. Something to consider for the future, James?

And the autograph... I still can't get over the fact that it sounds genuinely warm and just.. genuine. It's more than I expected. It's a slippery slope between appreciating this stuff and going, "I'm his favorite nr 1 fan and we'll have 100 hairy babies soon XD XD XD", so I'll try to not make too much out of it. But... it just means a lot to me. Oh James. *sniffle*

I'm still a bit disappointed I wasn't able to actually go to the con, but I doubt James would have appreciated me going broke over him. Sacrifices like this are unnecessary; I will get to meet him one day. I hope.

I had a pretty rough year emotionally, but so far, so good. I'm still here and doing much better than this time last year. James has been a real blessing for me with the depression - something to fantasize about, someone to look up to, a reason to keep living even. My blog is needed. Who else would bring you the latest news, found with my ultimate googling skills? Who would detect the faintest beginning of a donut gut where others only see a billowy shirt?

Despite the depression, I did manage to write (checks) 94 posts. That's pretty good. With many other things in my life on hold, it makes me happy that I've been able to work on this blog still. It gives me strength and joy, and I'm so glad you readers have been hanging in there with me. (10,882 visits and counting!)

So here's to another great year of James. May the spirit of Jamus shine upon us! Jamen.

Starfury Q&A - James Callis / Mark Sheppard, Part 2

Previously on the Baltarstar Blog: this Q&A part 1, in February last year. Ahem. When you interrupt something for such a long time, it becomes really hard to finish it. I had some trouble with this Q&A, owing to both sound quality and lack of context. I don't know much about Mark, and it makes it harder to guess what he might be talking about. I also didn't get all of James' references, but that's nothing new. If you have this file or were at the panel and want to correct some bits, please comment or email me (swanjonasAThotmailDOTcom), I promise I won't bite your head off.

In the beginning of the show, did they believe the fleet would eventually find Earth or did they think "Earth was just a frakking joke"? (laughter)

Mark: I dunno. I mean, I loved the show. Before I was ever on the show, I loved the show. I loved Ron and... I knew Ron reasonably well and I just... The hope that I had as a viewer was that there was there was a beautiful resort, that there would be somewhere a beautiful resort that makes all this terrible devastation and this idea of genocide and fear and pursuit and all these things... I always hoped there was somewhere beautiful ?.

James: Um... I didn't necessarily believe it, but I think that's because I was really ensconced in the mindset of Gaius Baltar, and Gaius Baltar on a day-to-day level, didn't know if he's gonna make it thru lunch, (laughter) didn't know if he was gonna make it thru a scene. I always used to joke that, you know that voice in Big Brother, he's like: "Gaius Baltar is now officially the most unpopular person ? ?" (laughter) So uh.. I never thought about the end or that manifestation of where it might be going, because in my own mind, Baltar's story was gonna have a full stop. [?] before the end, so he never saw it, I don't know.

Mark: It was like survival mode, continuous survival.

James: Yeah, I just never saw the.. what's it, the promised land again at the end of the...run or something like that.
I've tried to imagine the show without Baltar, and I think I would have lost a lot of my interest for it. Baltar and Six added something to the show, another level of... psychology? Sexual tension? Something that made the show infinitely interesting for me. I think Baltar was really the most interesting character, and it would have been a huge mistake to lose him. Baltar is rare in that we see into his mind, but we still don't learn a whole lot about him. He didn't have much backstory until the very end. If you think about it, all the other characters had some backstory before the third season. Baltar was the only major character whose story sort of began in the miniseries, and I'd argue his backstory was hidden even from him in some way, because he had tried so hard to rebuild his identity as a Caprican scientist, as opposed to the son of a farmer on Aerilon. A narcissistic mind is, in some ways, a closed book. As the narcissism unfolds a bit and he starts to see other people (and cylons), he also starts to open up to the viewers in some way.

Mark: See, for me, as a viewer, before I ever met you, as a viewer... That played so well, because that was the manifestation of guilt. That's what I saw as the manifestation of guilt, on a conctinuous basis, is that you get literally, any moment the game was up. What for wasn't necessarily gonna be... determined. But that's what sold me the character so much... [?] So wonderful to play. (laughs)

That's interesting because my girlfriend and I debated over this a lot, especially in season one. I agree with Mark that that was the manifestation of guilt for Baltar, while my girlfriend feels that he was just worried about being caught, which is not the same as guilt per se. I still maintain that if you're that scared of getting caught - especially when it's that unlikely - it's the sign of an underlying feeling of guilt. But if the debate was about morals vs. survival, I'd say Baltar is definitely more about survival than doing the right thing. It's an interesting debate, I might want to write more about that later.

Mark sounds fascinated with his own character, but I get the feeling he's even more fascinated with Baltar.

A question for Mark:
"At the last convention, you said you felt Romo was the last sane person in the universe."

Mark: "Absolutely!"

"How do you explain the cat?" (laughter)

Mark: I was lying! (laughter) Besides, the cat... I dunno if you're going to like that explanation, but I think it was all bullshit. I think pulling a gun on Lee was about something else. I don't think it has anything to do with my cat. I don't think Romo loses his mind over a cat. I think Romo loses his mind over whatever Romo chooses to lose his mind over. Always felt that way... it's just kind of, some sort of historical ? of my mistakes... Um...
James: I didn't understand that episode. I just remember watching it going, "What do you mean dead cat?" (?) Like, I don't know, and then, because of the way it was cut, there was this thing about, "I've lost my cat..." I was like, the cat's right there... And suddenly, "No, that's a flashback! The cat was alive for years (?) Didn't you watch anything?" I'm like, "It was right next to him." Romo goes, "Where's my cat?" and we see the cat. Like it's there all the time. "No! It's dead!"
(laughter; their voices are drowned out)
Mark: It didn't mean a lot to me. I love the scene with Eddie on the bridge, I think that's what the show is all about. The show had nothing to do with my cat. That episode had everything to do with whether Adama gets on that.. on the ship or not. Just think of it that way. It was fun to have me in it, with the conversation about sine qua non on the bridge and he decided to go, that's what that show is about... We'll see, there's more to come.

That's actually my pet peeve about that episode. Well, that and there being no Baltar in it. I didn't like that they brought Romo back just to convince Adama to do something and talk Lee into something. Romo is a great, strong character, and I thought it was a letdown to see him depressed and mainly just propping up the Adamas. I think the character is better than that.

I'll confess that I didn't watch Sine Qua Non that much, because it had NO BALTAR. I don't think I really followed enough to get the dead cat either. *bad BSG fan*

"I think Romo loses his mind over whatever Romo chooses to lose his mind over" is pretty classic. As is "Romo is the last sane person in the universe." The dead cat was a bit off character. I often feel like the actors know their characters better than the writers. The more input the actor - James, AJ, etc. - has had on the character, the more they stay on character. It's a problem with changing writers, I think.

About the accent James did in Dirty Hands:"Whose idea was that?"

James: That was their idea that they wanted a different accent. I thought at the time... Both Aaron and I didn't really particularly want to do the scene, as written. I didn't want to do it because I was like, 'Listen, all of the things that you're saying are absolutely wonderful. The idea of poor boy make good, somebody having to hide their real personality and all these kind of things... why are you putting it in the mouth of Gaius Baltar? I've got a hundred and one different things right now I could be talking about: about my cult, or about science, or about trying to find out who the final cylons are, or... but class struggle as well? I mean gimme a break! Find somebody else to do that!'
And then Aaron was like, (hoarse voice) 'Why would I even be here listening to this shitbag? (laughter) I don't wanna listen to this, why would I be...' I'm like, you're not even listening, why am I even gonna talk? I think it was Wayne, actually, Wayne Rose who was directing. He was like, 'You talk, you listen!' (laughter)
He's right, there are many other things Gaius Baltar could be talking about. The Aerilon accent kind of came out of nowhere, but it gave him his first hint of a backstory, and it worked so well with the flashbacks in the final episodes. Also, I thought it went some way to explain why Gaius is so arrogant and narcissistic. Someone had a great theory on that over at Sci Fi, here. baltarsloveslave - hee! - writes:

1. Baltar is rejected by his fellow Aurelions, particularly his peers, at an early age because of his intelligence because it is so far beyond theirs, just like kids today that are gifted are often shunned, harassed, teased, and bullied. Also, to make it worse, if what Baltar is saying about Aurelion "culture" is true, he may have been rejected not just because he was super intelligent but because that wasn't seen as a good thing...kind of like how there is a belief among some, and I stress SOME, African Americans in the U.S. today that to do well in school and show your intelligence is "acting white." (I used to be a teacher in a predominantly African American school and I did hear this quite often and found it very disturbing.)

2. Then, not only does Baltar find that he is rejected by his fellow Aurelions, he finds that he is rejected by other colonies because of the stereotype that goes along with Aurelions. Therefore he feels very alone, isolated, unloved and rejected by everyone.

3. Baltar then goes about distancing himself from his Aurelion roots and adopts a non-Aurelion persona, preferring to think of himself as Caprican. He distances himself both because of the treatment and rejection he received from Aurelions because of his intelligence as well as from non-Aurelions because of being Aurelion.

There's more but I won't quote the entire thing. I think this theory works really well, also considering the final episodes. Back to James' response:

James: And what happened was is that essentially they said... This is a difference between us in America... uh, them in America and us over here. They were like, 'Listen, we want to show that Gaius Baltar has come from a very rural and poor colony. And one of the things in the States where people have... what's the word, something that is emblematic of this struggle, is people who are dairy farmers here in the States. It's a very very rough and poor living, it's like, you're not government subsidised', and they were like, 'What that's like in England?' I was like, I don't think dairy farming is the same kind of.. it's more like being a miner in Yorkshire certainly. (laughter) And so...

Mark: There are poor? dairy farmers.. (?)

James: Yeah, oh dear. I said, 'Well, if you want dairy farming, what you should have is Dorset, really.' (in his Dorset accent) and I pu' on an accen' like that,(laughter) tryin' to do a Dorse' accent! David Eick, he jus' looked at me and went, 'Bugger off, (laughter) you can't do that. You're making an idiot of me on national television, I know what's going on buddy, I know why you talk like that. It's stupid, you just wanna make the show look ridiculous!' He said, (changes accent) 'No I mean, I'm thinking more about you know, uh, Michael Caine, can you do a Michael Caine?'

Mark: You said "I bloody can't!!" (laughter)

James: I said Michael Caine is not like... a horny-handed? son of toil. He's got a voice like it's East End of London or.. you know, it's very London and you know... no' a lo' of people know that. (laughter) Anyway, so I plumped for Yorkshire only because I went to university in York and I just remember the first role, [thick accent] when I first were at York .. Being in the chip shop and there were several students who were like... if ? was in the queue getting their chips, then five people would come in all, "Can I be in your order as well?" So, you know, people who were waiting would have to wait slightly longer, maybe 3 or 4 more bags of chips until they got theirs. And I saw this guy who went,[angry voice] "'appens every Friday night! These students come in 'ere taking our chips!!" (laughter) OK, um... and there certainly was a thing about, you know, very affectionate but they're also, you know, quite tough. And that's where that voice came from. I thought it kinda (?) it to suit me because simply because it was an accent I knew.

Mark: The poor, oppressed chip farmers. (laughter)

His York and especially Dorset accents are a huge hit with the audience, who probably have much more of a cultural background to get the joke. "Bugger off" gets a huge laugh, obviously because it's a very British thing to say. It's nice to hear James doing the accent to a British audience for that very reason. You can just hear the delight in the laughter, because they get the joke. The whole "students takin' our chips" voice is hilarious.

I do wonder if James likes fish and chips, because I tried it when I visited London in 2006, but it really wasn't that special. It was essentially fat and ... well, more fat. The fish didn't taste like anything. I wonder if it was just particularly bad fish and chips. Maybe it's good when made the right way? A bit disappointing after all the hype. But I digress.

The same fan asks if Baltar is just faking it and the accent isn't real.

James: Oh, no. Funnily enough, what I think... I was totally wrong about it. And it's essentially like.. I made such a fuss over this thing, and I didn't want to do it and I thought it was a stupid idea and everything. The first thing that came back was, 'Hell, maybe it is a stupid idea, you're playing a manipulative character.' This is the whole point of the story, I don't want the audience to necessarily know if it's true or not. You will find out if it's true or not, and that's all I'm gonna say.
I think it's actually a convincing idea that Baltar had a different accent as a child, because he doesn't sound like the other Capricans. It would make sense that he's trying to sound like the other Capricans and yet it comes out a bit different. Kinda like UK/US accents. There's got to be some reason why he sounds so different.

The fan asks, I think, if there's going to be a scene with Baltar milking...something. Milk in his hat? James seems to hear it wrong and the audience laughs, but I can't really hear what James or the fan say, so this part is useless to transcribe.
James: Right, well, no. Not exactly like that, but it's like... all will be revealed. (laughter)
And he's talking about the flashbacks, of course, which were still unaired and spoiler territory at the time. He was asked something about the flashbacks at this year's Starfury, and he seemed impressed by them and the idea of getting back to where the character came from. I absolutely loved the Julius Baltar scenes; the father/son dynamic was deliciously frakked up.

Asked about the person he based Baltar on, who's a bad liar. The guy asking the question thinks it's someone from his school, and asks if "this poor fool" knows about this.

James: No, he doesn't actually know who it is. And it's not a contemporary of mine. But this person who I know is ridiculously smart. He's so ridiculously smart, he writes.. I would say something like 30-50 books a year. Somebody who's been published all of the time, and has done a number of.. I would say groundbreaking exposés into psychoanalysis, pscyhotherapy. I mean, this guy's a genius. He is the worst liar I've ever met, (laughter) and it's really funny, because there is some breakdown on that level about being so brilliant and writing all of these things... yet being... um, what... Like when you try to tell somebody something that's not the truth, it's so transparent. So yes, he doesn't know.
James sounds like he really admires this person. I'm always curious about what James admires in another person - if they are the same qualities that I admire in him. From his comments about others, I'd say he admires kindness, intellect and talent (maybe especially at arts). Those are also the things I admire about him. It amuses me to hear James praise someone else, perhaps because in my hackneyed view, he's the best of the best. I know I'm projecting. *fangirl blush*

The same fan turns to Mark and asks about Romo's Irish, "Joycean or Peckish", nature. Did Mark bring it into the role or was it the writers?

Mark: It's Michael Angeli. Michael Angeli [went to Catholic school?]. There's a definite echo of... You know, we're looking at [?] It adds a dark inside to everything that was written. And it's Catholic thing, it is. It's a romantic, sad sense of loss.
Mark speaks beautifully about the characters. It's very poetic, how he describes Romo here. I'm sorry about all the question marks, I tried.

"Did you have any input into this?"

Mark: Actually, the greatest that input that I had into it was being able to do it, that's the point. It was so beautifully written, it was so absolutely beautifully written, that it became the framework of everything else that I did from that time. And I remember.. I mean I remember the dialogue to this day, it was effortless to do. There were pages and pages and pages of the stuff, but it's effortless because it had meaning, it had depth, and it did have an intrinsic sadness, but it was... It worked, I just thought it was beautiful. I mean, who the hell gets to say, "Does your love hurt as much as mine?" to anybody in speech? I was like, you don't get to do this on network television very often. I loved it, I worshipped it, I tried to honor it as best I can, and I'm so grateful to Michael Angeli for giving me that to do.
Beautiful. And I totally agree. Romo rocks and more could have been done with him. I was a bit annoyed they were bringing in a new character at that point, but I ended up loving Romo. The way to build up a character that quickly is to give him kickass dialogue that is his own and doesn't sound like everyone else in the show. That was great.

James: He won, like, one of the best screenwriters or something, didn't he?

Mark: He was nominated this year for an Emmy.

James: The best episode.

Mark: Six of One. When I got Six of One, Six of One came out... The first time I...

[I'm not sure about this bit - could James have forgotten what episode that was? :D But it's pretty funny if I'm hearing right:
James: Which one is that?

Mark: Season four...

James: Oh, I was in that one.]

Mark: First three lines in, I knew it was Angeli's episode. Because you can just...

James: That was Angeli who wrote that?

Mark: Yes.

James: [Good thing you told me.] (laughter)

Mark: The thing was that it became criminal (?) to Michael Taylor and Mark Verheiden had to write for me, writing the same character that Angeli.. all of his dialogues. and it's... there's a special place in that.

Six of One rocked (Baltar meets Head Baltar!). I think I've liked all Angeli episodes. He writes Romo really well, and he also writes a good Cavil and Baltar. He and Jane Espenson are some of my favorites. I know now that James ad libbed a lot of the HeadBaltar thing, so maybe I should credit him rather than Angeli.

(Mandatory grumble that James was, once again, not nominated for an Emmy. I know he said Emmys don't matter, but he frakking deserves at least a nomination!)

Mark: And the cane is mine. Ron(?) comes up to me and says, what do you want to do? (?) I'm like, I dunno. Wheelchair's a bit too much, a bit Ironside... I don't know. He said, 'What about a cane, do you want a couple of canes? I thought you could be walking around with sticks for a while, wouldn't that be cool?' I said it's gonna look really stupid, walking around. It ended up that I had this cane, and this cane became this amazing thing. We left you in the cell, me and Jamie left you in the cell. [?]

James: You left the cane.

Mark: And we left, the cane was there. "Oh! We'll do the cane, oh! we'll do this." And then Ron walks past, I'm like, "Can we put the cane down? Can we put the cane down?" He goes,"...yeah." (laughter)

There comes this thing, but it all comes from the original writing. Everything that we've done, that I was there, that I saw.. the sense of it, the beginning of it, it was this wonderful phase? of writing that we got to play. We got to have fun. Really good writer, really really really good writer. Great to read, great to watch.
Not much to add, except: it's great to hear an actor talk about a role he really loves, especially when it's a role you also love. Romo rocks.

To James: was it hard to keep a straight face when "Tricia was almost permanently superglued to you"? (laughter)

James or Mark - maybe James? - says, "Hours of practice." (laughter)

Did he need to have a cold shower? (I can't hear the fan very well, not sure what he's trying to ask.)

James: No, I had... um... (laughter) I'm not sure that I had to have a straight face.
He sounds a bit like he doesn't know what to say to the question. The fan says something about quivering, and James is in his own element again, making a joke about it:

James: Quivering. That was very easy. (laughter) Honestly, I just... I enjoyed it so much. (laughter) I think that there's.. What I mean to say about that is that you know, having a beautiful woman even pretend that you are...you know, so attracive that they've got to, you know, that they're in love with you, does something inside to you as an individual. It's like, you're not acting, you're obviously... (laughter; James' voice is drowned out)

And it gives you ... it gave me a certain liberty and freedom in the sense of really, I'm not just doing a scene with Eddie - let's say that you're Eddie - I've got my friend who's like by me, it's two against one. It was always two against... you know. So... no, it wasn't hard to... Yeah, sometimes it was terribly hard to keep a straight face. But these are normally things about like when you, halfway thru the scene, somebody slipped over, or I smacked the door into somebody, or took the door off its hinges, things like that which... didn't go according to plan, were amusing. Otherwise it was uh... Yeah, it was fine.

It's interesting, because the audience laughs, but James sort of makes his voice more serious there with "What I mean to say"... I think he wants to express something serious, but the fans are always ready to see it as a joke about sex. It's problematic. There's a lot more to Six and Gaius than just sex, but especially in season one, they played on the sex angle so much that it's very easy to joke about and sometimes hard to take seriously. I think it's an utterly serious thing with HeadSix on some level. It's not meant to be the comic relief. It's meant to be about psychological torture and guilt and fear (at least the way I see it). Well, some scenes are obviously meant to be comic relief, but their story arc itself is not about comedy.

Mark is asked about the Irish band Light a Big Fire. "Were you in the band or a roadie?"

Mark: Yeah, I wasn't a roadie, I was the drummer. (laughter) Great band.
So then he says "banging on a set of (?) and orgasming". Or "section 31 in the road" something. Or something else I don't catch. :P Eh. My Irish accent interpretation needs a lot of work. Either way, he was in that band, as I learned from Wikipedia, and he was a drummer, so it's not a joke. I'm actually kind of impressed learning about this.

I don't really understand the next question. I don't think James does either, since he asks for that clarification.

James: Is this like in drama school or just people you work with?

Fan: Well, I'm thinking of people who were already famous when you were still students.

James: Oh, like that. Like that. [takes a thinking break] You know, for example, the people reading the Bible have got to... If you had met them in real life you're like, oh dear! (laughter) If you waited maybe another century (laughter) or never... That would be, you know, a fold was taken away from my eyes.
I'm not sure what he's saying or what this has to do with the question. I think it's a "joke while I think of a serious answer" sort of moment, which shows his ability to control the situation and make the panel flow naturally even when he needs a moment to think.
James: Luckily enough I can say no, I've... no, for example actually, one of my heroes, I rarely say this cos I don't really have... You know like people fall in love with a film star or they.. I've never had that, but more like falling in love with the person down the road.. Cos on some level, I've got more of a chance of going out with the person down the road than...a thing on the screen.

But I actually bumped into, literally bumped into John Hurt in Covent Garden about... a year ago. And I think that he is one of the most phenomenal actors I've ever seen. [someone starts to clap but no one joins in] Whatever he's on in everything, I just can't... I can't take my eyes off that man, he's legendaric[?]. He's something... he's got something that very few other people have. And I had the opportunity, like a fan, to say, (funny voice) "I love you" (laughter) and... I literally couldn't say I a word, I was uh.. nervous and... I don't know... I just stood there like an idiot... (laughter) He kinda looked at me and walked on! (laughter) So, I think that the people who you respect or whatever, you always have (?) them. I can't say that I met people who... you know, have [turned it] on in that way... luckily.
Hee! I can imagine my meeting with James might be something like this. It's just the idea of him really being there in the same room... It's just so HUGE in one way, even if I realize he's just a person. I'm amused that there are actors who have this effect on him, it kind of makes me wonder if he'd understand a nervous fan's reaction better because of it. Also, M was really excited he mentioned John Hurt, because she sees a similarity between his and James' acting. I must admit to my utter ignorance on John Hurt films, but I think I must check him out.


Mark: I got to play with (?) He cast me in In the Name of the Father. I got to play in the royal court, it was great to play in the royal court. It was kind of a boring play, I didn't really enjoy it. We were having a drink afterwards. I was like... Yeah, I was kinda bored, I was leaving. He's like, "Oh, I'd like to introduce you to somebody." We went to a table and there was another actor there and he said, "Oh, Peter, this is Mark, I cast Mark in In the Name of the Father. Mark, this is Peter." And I stick my hand out and I'm like fuck me, it's (a character name?) (laughter) I said, "Oh you were wonderful in that". And I went... (laughter; he probably shows some funny movement?) He says, (frail voice) "Thank you very much!" (lauhgter)

James: That's beautiful. Funnily enough, that's interesting, because I have also met Peter O'Toole, but it was in slightly different circumstances, cos we were all in a Biblical film together in India. He was there for like two days. And I was terrified, I was playing the evil baddie. But I mean, evil baddie that really does make Gaius Baltar look like (naughty something?) (laughter) Gaius Baltar is such a beginner in the evil baddie stakes. And this person I was playing was like.. he was a genocidal lunatic. And I.. in that way, I look upon it.. My hair was jet black and I had this jet black beard and I was always in this black velvet costume, it wasn't very subtle. (laughter) I had lots of people going, "Oh dear, I mean, everyone's gonna know that you're the baddie!"And I was like, it's not that kind of film where you want the people come out, having looked at the genocidal maniac, going, "I finally understood that guy." (laughter)

Mark: Getting all the people he's killed.

James: Exactly. So um... and this is, again, in terms of respect for people who you've seen. Peter O'Toole was... utterly incredible. I don't actually know how old he is now, but like somebody whose mind is (digital?) still. So there was actually a big conversation at the table and it was all about... uh... going into Iraq, actually. And one of the members around the table said that uh... I'm trying to remember the exact words, but it was something about a goodness of cause, um... righteousness. "We're going in and it's righteous." And Peter O'Toole was like, (imitates) "Define righteous for me right away. (laughter) Define righteous! No, I'm sorry, but that was not the definition." And then he went into a definition. It was like listening to the OED. (laughter)

And I was (?), because I looked kinda bad, "bad arse" as they say, it sounds silly, "bad arse" for "bad ass". (laughter) The thought it was funny (?) He called me a tiger, and I was like... I just remember calling everyone I know on the phone: "Peter O'Toole. He called me - me?! - a tiger?!" (laughter) So ... there it is.
Oh dear, I also have to admit to my utter ignorance on the movies of Peter O'Toole. I think Mark says a character's name, but I can't see it on the imdb list, so it must be a theatre thing. However, since I can check imdb, I can show off by knowing how old Peter O'Toole is. He is 77. Wow. (And another thing James admires: life experience and wisdom.)

It's really amusing and endearing to hear them talk about actors they felt squeamish with. Even Mark, who seems so confident and blasé at times; James I can imagine being a bit shy or humble, Mark not so much. It's a nice reminder that even famous people are just people.

I love how psyched James is about being called a tiger. I also love how he admits the role wasn't subtle or anything. Haman is probably the worst cardboard baddie he's ever played, they even had him do this gravelly voice that kind of ruined it for me. I actually laughed when he rode in on town on a black horse, wearing a black cape, his hair dyed black... If it were in Monty Python, it would have a caption saying HERE COMES THE BAD GUY. (I wasn't able to see most of that film because Youtube deleted it just before I saw the rest, but ... maybe it wasn't such a loss, ahem.)

The next question is about "kleptomania" - if they took away anything from the BSG set. Then everyone's laughing and clapping, so I assume they showed something. (Maybe James points at his jacket?)

James: To be honest about this, normally when we're on set like.. I actually got this jacket. This was not kleptomania or stolen or ? in that fasion, this was given to me. I wanted to wear a trench coat when I was on New Caprica, I had this idea of you know, loking like.. some faded mafia boss and.. I constantly had this idea that it was cold and I was cold. I bought this jacket. And then they were like, "Oh listen, take this away again, cos you brought in your own jacket to wear." I went, "No no no, this is your jacket that you've given me." And they still, anyway, they gave it to me. Normally on a set, we're on the DVDs, we're in the... It's like we got so much off the show, I never really want to take anything from it. I'm like, all I need to do is reference points, see the thing on the... Having said that, I wonder what you've taken. (laughter)
Mark: I got a pair of glasses which I actually paid for.

James: Ridiculous, isn't it. (laughter)

Mark: (?) I mean I (?) chair (?)

James: That's not stealing! They give you those, they can't use them on anybody else. Unless you're like... (?)

Mark: (?)

James: So I haven't really, and I'm trying to think of what.. You know, there was a joke that we were talking about costumes and they gave certain costumes, and now we find out that Tricia's red dress is being auctioned off. Like, she's not allowed to have the red dress.

Mark: I remember seeing that online a couple of days ago, the whole catalogue is now.. They're selling my glasses and both my coats, all this stuff...

James: They're selling a few of my acolytes as well apparently. (laughter) (???, more laughter)

I had real trouble with this bit and I'm still listening to it and I can't hear even James properly here, let alone Mark. The voices are somehow distorted. I'm not sure why Mark would have to pay for the glasses (did they cheat him with those?)

It's odd to think that ten years ago, there would have been no DVDs, no way to keep the show other than on some tapes at the TV station. You would have had to wait for the reruns. I'm so glad we can have that memory of the show and rewatch whenever we like. My BSG DVDs are some of my most watched.

It's a bit sad that Tricia wasn't allowed to keep the red dress. Maybe she declined it? Would it have attracted too much attention to her? I know James mentioned having been offered the HeadBaltar costume, but he didn't want it. (Admittedly it doesn't seem like he could use it that much.) Tricia's own style is very down to earth, so I can imagine her not being too keen on wearing the red dress of doom.

"Is there anything you wish you had taken?"

James: I actually... I love books, really. And Adama's quarters were just st... you know, stuffed with so many interesting books, so I wish I'd taken one of those.

Awww! I was really excited about this, because I love books too. I knew James reads a lot, but it still feels nice and fan-gushy to hear him talk about it like this. I can spend hours at the library or at a book store, just looking through the books, wanting to have them all. Maybe James felt similar in the Adama set?

Mark: Maybe the dead cat? (laughter) Seeing that they actually made the dead cat, it was frightening and... I don't think they wanna auction that off. (laughter) You know, I had a real luck taking the feeling I had being there. Cos I wasn't there all the time, and I got to travel away and I got to come back. This sense of.. being a part of something, that's what I'd like to take.
Hee, the dead cat! I saw some con pictures and someone was dressed as Romo with the sunglasses and the coat, and he had a cat toy in a bag. It was hilarious. I guess the dead cat was intended as some sort of a serious thing, but it's turned into a joke, as you can tell from this Q&A.

I like how Mark talks about the atmosphere on set. It seems like everyone who was on the show just had this great feeling of coming together and doing something amazing, and I'd say that feeling does come through in the show and maybe is part of the reason why fans love it so much. It's obvious they all loved doing this and believed in what they were doing. That's not necessarily true of every show.

James: Listen, we're being told to wrap up. Thank you very much for being uh.. (applause)

He doesn't have to think of what to say, because he's drowned out in applause and cheers. I think he says "See you over the weekend".

What a great panel. Okay, I am so posting this now, even with the gaps. I won't take another year.